My ex broke up with me.. we was in a 12 year relationship. Our relationship was far from perfect in the last few years .. both lost the trust she basically had a affair for a year and half even when I tried to fix it but she disappeared that...I cheated back two wrongs don't make a right but didn't keep it going.. this is what started my bitterness and coldness towards her..I started to get high again to numb the feelings.. she found out... when she did she was out to hurt me messed with a married man tried to fuck another close friend called cps on my neighbor because I was associated with him... within a week or so she then started dating my best friend of 20 plus years