Almost 2 whole months after getting blindsided by my girlfriend for 2 years and waves of sadness and anger still hit me on days like this. She's never gonna read this, she doesn't use reddit at all but I don't care, I'm not even writing this for her to read it, I just wanna get it out of me. Thank you N. I found you broken, picked up your pieces and put you back together. Helped you whenever you needed help, been there for you at moments and in situation when you had LITERALLY noone. I kept supporting you and keeping you close even when you were pushing me away, even when you were hurting me, I fought for us. I gave you trust, honesty, loyalty, love and everything I had to give. I've fought uphill battle after uphill battle for you always striving for what was best for you... for us. You gave back exactly what I gave you only a little twisted. For picking up your pieces you made sure you left me in pieces. For helping you whenever you needed you left me helpless when I needed you the most. For being there for you when noone else was, you vanished, blocked me and left me alone. For supporting you and keeping you close, you blamed me for everything and threw me away. You betrayed my trust, you gaslit me and lied to me, you cheated and manipulated me and you left as soon as the first inconvenience appeared. Fuck you! I helped you learn to love yourself and you made me hate mine.