My ex ghosted me after 4 months about 4 weeks ago (4th of July). I have no idea what happened. We spoke the day before and he was his usual upbeat self. Then nothing.

Then out of the blue I get a WhatsApp from a number I don’t have with his name. I don’t know anyone else with his name so it must’ve been him. I texted him back, waited several hours then called no answer. The last thing I said was what the fuck. No answer.

I moved through the stages of grief, oscillating between deep sadness, anger and numbness. For the last two weeks I have been numb and hardly thought about him.

Last night I could hardly sleep, replaying the good and the bad. I really thought we would be together for the long haul. I’m 36 and the thought of starting completely over is devastating. We shared the same values, goals in marriage and children. We’d talk on the phone for hours easily and always were in touch. He was so supportive of me getting work in a different state and was genuinely happy for me. He said a 4 hour drive or a flight was nothing to him and we’d make it work. Now I’ve moved and I feel so alone. Like I lost my best friend and support.

I miss him so much I am about to break and text him I miss him. I don’t know if this is the right call or if I’m setting myself up to be ignored again. I feel so sad. I don’t know what to do.