I met her online, through a mutual friend. It wasn't long before I fell for her, her way of speaking, her mind. She amazed me. I stopped myself from feeling for a little. My brain, I had to use my brain: "What am I thinking? She has a boyfriend and even if she didn't it can't work! She's from another freaking country. She's way younger than you.". I kept silent. Tried to be just friends, even tried to avoid contact. Her relationship failed, her ex abused her and then dumped her. I was there for her. She'd text me and text me and talk to me all night til we'd see the sunrise. I picked up her pieces. Put them together. I couldn't take it anymore, I had to confess. At first she thought I was joking, then she thought it's just my mind playing tricks on me. She wouldn't believe that I would have fallen for her. I told her my thoughts, I told her how I don't expect anything and how I know it's too hard to work even if she felt anything. She was kind, caring, she didn't want to hurt me so she asked me to do what's best for myself without thinking of her. How could I? How could I not think of her? I couldn't. I told her I'd stay by her side for as long as my heart can bare it. A month later she told me she had been developing feelings for me. She kept saying how in her eyes I was perfect and how she could kinda feel I had feelings for her but she was in denial thinking someone as perfect as me could never really fall for her. I wasn't perfect, I am not perfect. I was just honest, kind, caring, loving and loyal to her even if she wasn't my gf yet. We started our long-distance relationship in July. I had not seen her. I had just heard her voice. We kept talking more and more and sharing experiences together even with our distance between us. We were happy. She was insecure, shy, she thought I would have never accepted her once I saw her. She would never send pictures of her face. I kept reassuring her about my feelings and was always there for her but she was too insecure. It was fine, I accepted that side of her along with everything. Around winter she convinced her parents to visit Greece for their next summer vacation. I was beyond excited. I couldn't express my happiness. I was over the freaking moon. July comes and they come for vacation in a city quite close to mine and of course I book a room there to go be with her. Once they arrived they immediately went to the beach. I was at the beach as well. We shared location so I can find her. I ran to the place she was. I go down some stairs of a beach bar and start looking for her. I turn to my right and I see her over the fence at the adjacent beach bar... Ah... My heart started racing, my whole face was red, my mind went blank and I kinda started running to jump over the fence. "What am I doing? I can just get out of the beach bar I was in and in the next one where she is!" I run out! Run to her! I think she whispered "Hi" I took her in my arms. She was so hot from the sun. Her skin, her face, her cheeks. I kissed her cheeks so many times. I kept telling her "I love you, I love you so much!". She introduced me to her parents and brother. She had her hand on my chest feeling my heartbeat which must have been around 200 bpm. Fast forward: we spent 6 wonderful days and nights there and she returned to her home country. We arranged our next meetup and we were together again not even a month later. Again, it was pure heaven. I'm 31 years old and I've never felt like that in my life, NEVER! Then again after some weeks she leaves and we spent 4 months away from each other but we talk more now, we video call, we exchange photos all the time, we do so many things together. December comes and I had to move out of the apartment I was in. I don't like change and I liked that apartment a lot. My mood was shit, I was missing my girlfriend and I was feeling like everything is going shit. I move and then the holiday season starts and I'm alone and feel even more depressed. She surprises me with the best surprise ever. She tells me she booked tickets to come to me on the 1st of January. O M G. I burst into tears, tears of joy. I thank God, the universe and everything that somehow I'm that lucky to have such a girl by my side. She comes and we spent 20 days of heaven. I'm not gonna lie, it's the first time in my life that I've even thought about getting married and having a family. She proposes to leave stuff at my apartment for her next visits and just by that I'm ecstatic. I'm overjoyed. So she does leave some stuff at my apartment and the day comes when she goes back home again. I'm letting myself be 200% immersed to this relationship, to the feelings, to everything I was going through. Nothing matters, no bad thing can happen as long as I have her. Fast forward: May comes and we start planning our vacation again, I would go to her country at July 15th and then we would return to Greece together for however long we wanted. Visiting her is the only thing I'm looking forward to do. May 11th and she's acting strange. She feels kinda distant. I tell her how I feel because I promised I would always tell her and be honest. I would never sweep anything under my rug. She assures me it's nothing and we continue as we were. May 17th another strange incident and behaviour. This time including a boy who she apparently thought of befriending long ago but I'm hearing it for the first time. She befriends him that day while he had preciously (2 hours ago) declared he was interested in her and asked whether she was single or not. She also proposes they go to prom together and that startles me. The day before she was telling me she is sure about 95% that she doesn't even wanna go to prom but next day she invites a guy to be her partner?! And not some familiar guy, a random guy who told her CLEARLY he was interested in her. I tell her how jealous that makes me and how her actions don't make sense. She gaslights me into thinking I'm crazy, pushy and pressuring and I shut up and get depressed. The following weeks she starts getting out and having fun which would be totally normal in any other case. In the three years I've known her she never wanted to go out or socialise. I've tried to motivate her and get her to socialise and make friends and enjoy her life more but she always got angry and she said "I don't want anyone. I have you.". But now she goes out, socializes and has fun with people she used to flame all day PLUS that boy she befriended. Whenever she's out she disappears for hours, 12, 14, 15, 18 (actual hours she was out those 4 times). I confront her every time. I show her how when I'm out she'll text and if I don't respond in 20 mins max she would spam and call and tell me she is worried but when she is out she disappears. She keeps telling me it's nothing sus and she loses focus when she has fun and she's having fun socialising for the first time in her life and again I get depressed thinking I'm unreasonable. Fast forward: June 5th she's invited to a bday party at her classmate's villa. She gets ready in the morning, she's wearing my shirt which makes me tear up when she sent me a video of her outfit (a video which I asked for because I had missed her). I tell her I love her, I ask her to be careful and I ask her to ,if I come across her mind, text me to tell me she's okay. She texts me once or twice. I thank her and keep reminding her I love her. June 6th 01:10 AM : She tells me she loves me too and that she's having fun. June 6th 03:14 AM : I tell her I'll go lie down but have my phone next to me, I tell her that her shared location shows her offline and I would like her to ,whenever she would see this message, just text me everything's okay. June 6th 03:32 AM : She texts me that it may seem sudden but she's breaking up with me. I reply instantly. "What? Is this a prank? Is this real? What happened?" She tells me "It's real, I'll tell you details when I can." After like 20 calls she picks her phone up and tells me that she's been thinking of another romantically for some time now. She confirms it's THAT BOY that I was jealous of. She doesn't say much, I CAN'T say much because I'm crying my eyes out and we hang up. Later that day she texts me to ask my exact address so she can ship the bday present she had bought for me on my bday in February. I'm still amazed that that's all she has to say to me after ending 2 years like she did. I ask her to answer me things if she feels I deserve answers. She agrees and we call. She's cold, stone cold. It hurt. I accidentally call her baby once and she cuts me to tell me "I'm not your baby". She tells me that during the previous night, after she texted me to break up she told THAT guy she liked him, he liked her back of course and they kissed and cuddled (she was on her period so she couldn't do more -my remark-). She told me they are trying for a relationship and even though she says I'm a great guy and she wishes nothing but the best she keeps implying and even asking me "Don't you think your behaviour during this lead me to this?". She forgets to turn off her shared location and I see that she spends the night after the next at his house. I talk to her next evening and ask her if she's completely moved on, if she gave herself completely to THAT guy. She confirms that she did and tells me she feels completely over me. I break... I ask her how could she do this to me and all she says is "I wanted it to end in a more peaceful way but I was going crazy with my emotions and you've been fucking me up the past month.". 8 days later she blocked me from everywhere and left me for dead. I don't want to believe humans are capable of that kind of behaviour. She left me like I'm dead. Like I'm not a person anymore. Not a human. Not for her. I loved her more than anything. Gave her my all. And I'm dead for her... Ah... I just wanted to tell my story and vent because today was such an emotionally charged day for me. Feel free to comment anything.

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