Before people start to move on, hear me out I can’t move on. I have tried it all been on dates meeting new people, it’s so doesn’t feel right to even talk to anyone else.

When we first broke up I begged and shit and then she started to see someone. I lashed out and telling her to come back and shit. She was real pissed with me and told me not to contact her anymore. I felt like I was hit with reality and that she is gone.

So that’s day I decided to work on myself, I finished my uni got a job that’s pays me real good, quite smoking, hit the gym, found hobbies to distract myself, I’m not gonna say none of this help me it definitely did help me a lot in terms of mind set. But every time I try to give another shot meet someone new all I can think of is her tbh my love for her is only grown like drastically.

I broke this no contact after 6 months yesterday and asked her how she was doing, she seemed happy! I’m glad she was. We spoke a lil bit catching up on things she definitely sounded normal. So me being me told her “just tell me as it is, tell me you hate me, tell me I’m never getting you back, tell me you’ll be happy if I’m gone” and she went “well that’s all fails, I could never hate you and idk what the future holds and you are not some guy I’ll forget about”

Idk how to even feel about the reply. Then I told her how I have been working on myself to be a better person, and I’ll be always there if she ever feels down or needs me. She went “I appreciate it’s all, I’m glad you are working on yourself”

That’s how the whole convo ended and I can’t really text her co she had a man. It’s doesn’t feel right to text her all day long every day.

I’m hoping she will come back someday. Is it bad to have that hope.