I had a really weird thought so I stopped and took this picture. This is halfway down the pipe alley behind me is the other half. This alley is like my life I'm half way through and I can't turn around, there's danger on every side things that could kill me, hurt me, etc. I also am completely alone nobody is walking this alley with me at the moment. It's just me. The end of is it is the end of my life and I can see it's not too far. I'm praying to god he don't make me walk it alone with nobody beside me. As it stands now i look left right behind and forward and nobodies there, they all left. Just a weird thought. But it makes sense doesn't it? I don't want anymore women to come into my life that are just going to leave me. I've been left enough in life. It hurts too much anymore.