Hello everyone. Me and my babymomma broke up 2 months ago and honestly it destroyed me. I've gotten to the point where I'm not as sad anymore but I still want her back. She is a tough gal, and hard headed. And that's cool. But it makes it so hard on trying to get through to her.

Anyways, we were together nearly 6 years. We have a kid together as well. We still live together and that makes it hard for either of us to miss each other or to heal. But now I'll tell you why we broke up. I discovered during this break up that due to childhood trauma I never spoken of, it all caught up to me and I had depression,anger,and overall a negative person. I started taking those issues out on her. I'd be out all say faking smiles but then get home and find something to be mad about. It led to silly arguments...me not showing affection or doing things your pose to do as a great bf.

So now...im going to counseling and even church and my mind is the greatest it's been since around 2020. I'm nowhere near where I wanna be but it's gonna happen. Even though I'm limited on things I can do with her because of her boundaries I am still being so nice to her. When we go places i open doors, we talk more, I ask her how her day was, is there anything I can do for her. But everytime I wanna tell her I love her or something like that or I wanna be with her i get the "you gotta stop" and then I feel like an idiot.

I'm trying so hard to completely change myself and not for her but for me and my boy. But I want her to see these changes(and she does) and I want her to give me one more shot but she makes it so hard for me to do anything. I get that I did so much damage but why won't she chance it after she is seeing the man I need to be? What do I need to do?? How can I win her back when she isn't willing to date or anything like that? Should I keep trying or just let it go and see what the future holds?