Our break up was not your ordinary break up. Both suffering from mental health issues and trust issues. I did something that scared her, betrayed her trust and was so uncharacteristic of me that it brought up past ptsd from previous relationships. I am nothing like her two ex’s who were monsters. But after i did what I did, she couldn’t go back on a promise she made to herself to allow someone to make her feel unsafe again. She didn’t want it to end and i still don’t think she wants us to be a part. Over the course of the next 5 months, a Flip flop of emotions ensued. Going from missing me to being extremely angry that i took her safe person away from her. Mind you she is the one who helped me get the help i needed. After a time she said we didn’t have a future together and we both needed to move on, I returned her things to her best friends boyfriend. A week later she contacted me angry and hurt that i gave the stuff back. I was only respecting her decision. A couple months later, in October, she again said that we were not getting back together. You would think that was the end. No. She argued with me and expressed how much I hurt her. She wanted me to come over for one last goodbye. I couldn’t do it. She then said that i made my choices about wanting her clear and that i just wanted her gone and permission to move on. (Not the case) it’s been 3 months and we haven’t spoken. She has me blocked everywhere and still has all my things. I think she wanted me to go there to make up. But she couldn’t say that because that would make her look vulnerable and give me the power. I didn’t want anything but her. Any advice would be appreciated. Sorry for the long post.