So here we are 41 got dumped right before christmas by the women that I lived with for a year. She left me to go back to her husband and be a family. I was in a bad bad way my job suffered I ended up moving back into my mother's house. I did the whole let's not talk stuff and then she contacted me and said she still loves me and misses me. Her husband didn't change at all and pays no attention to her. She soon showed her true colors and that she will never change. To me that was all the closure I needed and I got to work on myself. I weighed in at a tournament at 280 I recently want to the doctor and I'm down to 250. So I started to hit the gym often. I made sure I was eating healthy. I got back out there and started dating and meant a wonderful women. I took a better paying job that gives me alot more freedom. I soon. Realized that I wasn't in love with my ex still I was in love with the old her. I was in love with the women that once looked at me with such passion. But that moment was replaced with all the nagging and complaining. When she pulled in the driveway my stomach would knot up. In all honesty I was going to end it around the first of the year. I wasn't happy and neither was she, and she had the guts to end it and for that I thank her. If we didn't end I wouldn't have meant someone and I would still be miserable.