There is so much I wanted to say but it all came out wrong over text and when I realized you weren't really reading anymore.

God dammit I miss you. Every single thing about you. About what we had. But it can never come back and I gotta muster through years of service and bullshit for a "chance" with "someone" else. Yea. You should hear about the incident today.

I am so sorry I ruined whatever chances we had at ever even talking again. But I was so fucking alone. I still am. Noone can ever hold a candle to the company, friendship, love, devotion, support, and just general humanity you showed and shared with me.

I am so sorry. (FOR FUCKING EVERYTHING up)

Thank you to few genuine people. Yalls made a big difference in a little man's life.