She broke off our engagement. We were supposed to get married in August and she hooked up with some guy literally 5 days after our two year long relationship ended.

Context- She came out as bisexual in December and I remember feeling really uneasy because it seemed like once she told me that she started to pull away, I know not all bisexual women are cheaters, but I have literally been cheated on ONLY by bisexual women (never by my previous lesbian partners). When she told me I felt literally sick to my stomach. It felt like a pattern I kept getting stuck in no matter what I did. I panicked, she was going to travel to a country in Asia for January and I gave her a one time hall pass to sleep with a guy. She was thrilled and I just knew we were over, if it was when she came back or a month down the road. She ended our relationship 12 hours after I got her from the airport coming home.

I knew she would move on quickly. It was my roommate who actually figured out she had already slept with a new dude (less than a week after things ended). In our relationship she always wanted me to be more masculine than I ever was, overtime I started to change parts of myself to better fit what she wanted me to be. Now that we are over I feel broken and I don’t remember what I used to feel or be.

We weren’t perfect and looking back I know in the last 3 months of our relationship we fought far more than was healthy, but I feel like I lost my future, my person and someone who got me in a way that no partner before her had.

She’s in a new apartment, having sex with strangers and I stare at my engagement ring on my bedside table wishing this was all one bad dream.