I don’t know what to do folks. I miss her so much. But it’s over. She was my best friend. But we weren’t good together. She made me so happy. But we fought a lot. I wasn’t good to her. I was emotionally manipulative. I don’t deserve her. I’m trying to learn how to forgive myself. For the first month I was constantly blowing up her phone through texts. Not asking for her back but apologizing for my wrongs. She was so cool dude . Coolest person I know. I wouldn’t be the person I am today without the things I learned and experience from our relationship. But it’s over. We’re done. I miss her. But we shouldn’t be together. Has she moved on ? Does she hate me? Is she dating anyone else ? What is she doing? Is she hooking up people? Idk. I drive myself crazy with these thoughts every day. It’s been 5 days since I last texted her and I promised myself I will not text her again. I need to respect her boundaries and respect myself enough to have a lil more dignity. It’s only been a month. But I miss her.