I hate this icky feeling, like I’ve done everything I possibly can to be civil and nice and he’s just painting me out to be the awful person which isn’t true and every time we talk he just gaslights me and fights me and I’m just tired of it like like i genuinely believe that I’m an awful and unlovable person now because of how evil he makes me out to be and I know it’s not true I know I’m actually an amazing person but it’s so hard he’s really fucked me up mentally I’ve never felt so bad I’m lowkey worried about thoughts right now i feel so bad i just need some advice or some encouraging words please

I have him blocked on everything now and don’t think there is any hope for us ever again and won’t ever reach out to him again but how is it so easy for him to do this to me and to move on from me