Its like almost 2 months post breakup. My breakdowns have been more spread out but they still happen frequently and deeply. Its like a train that hits me and I cry for hours and the pain is like a deep wound inside. I feel so much pain thinking about my ex. I usually try to journal and take a walk. Does anyone else have any “in the moment” tips? Sometimes the pain runs so deep, I don’t want to be on planet earth anymore. Its like a reoccuring thought, one way to end this pain is to not be here. I am in therapy 👍

Also all of my friends even my previous fwb are all in happy relationships. All of my classmates are engaged or getting married. Its like no one around me in real life knows the pain I feel. Everyone is falling in love or deeper in love. I can’t help but feel bitter and cannot be truly happy for them, even though I am but of course I compare. I always think what did I do to deserve this? How come I deserved to be dumped while everyone goes along happily? Even men who I knew to be single are taken now. What the heck did I do in my past life? This sucks. Breakups are the worst.