Hey everyone,

Myself (22M) and my now ex (21F) have taken a break from our relationship after 5 years. She has always suffered with her mental health, and while our relationship was happy, healthy, loving and honest, her mental health often put a strain on our happiness and her progress as a person.

She decided that a month or two apart would be enough for her to get herself in order. As we left things, she was starting therapy, a new college course and new antidepressants. She also told me that I was her future, she will always love me, but didn’t want me to wait around while she got better. She was sad, but hopeful.

It’s been 3 weeks and it’s hit me like a fucking brick wall this week. I miss her SO much. I cannot do anything without worrying for her, specifically for her well-being and whether or not she will still feel the same once we reconnect. It’s taking everything in me not to check on her. We didn’t set a specific timeframe, and I decided i would allow her to get back in touch, not me, to avoid rushing her. I have no idea when she’ll get back in touch with me but it’s absolutely killing me at the moment.

I know it’s for the best, but I can’t do anything but think of her, and fear for our future.

Does anyone have any suggestions as to how to ease the pain I’m feeling at the moment?