My ex and I broke up officially a month and a bit ago and in total with a break about 2 months.

The random feelings of deep deep sadness and the crying and the depression is so exhausting. It is my first breakup so navigating it has been so draining.

The crying to the point I’m screaming, the thought of him and everything else is so tiring. On top of that, work and trying to keep myself busy and hang out with friends and family and dom my hobbies is so tiring. I’m so tired, I want a lobotomy.

I wish I could just be myself and happy before I met him. I miss him so much and I want to hear his voice. I almost broke NC but that would help no one.

Any one else feel the same way? I wish us all the best.