I ended things with her last night after crying nonstop for days. I took videos of myself while breaking down during those times and whenever I see them, it breaks my heart to pieces. I held on and then when we finally talked, I realized that maybe I won't get the warmth I need from her. That's why I decided to end it.

I just wanted her warmth, her reassuring words. It did not help that I miss her so much then. Then when I got hurt, I still put her first.

This was the person I finally pictured a future with. But it's all gone. Still, I do not know how to really let go. Of her, of our memories, of the things I have of her. I can't imagine fully letting everything go. Where do I even start? How do I even start?

It's so hard to be an anxious person with an avoidant partner (ex). We were mostly happy and I miss those moments. I just wish I did not feel that way when she was cold with me.

She was my home. Where do I go now?