You can check out my other recent posts in here to know more context about my story, if you'd like to do so — because this post will be just me venting out and letting myself express my emotions :)

Basically, it was her birthday the other day and we last talked about a month ago.

I was the dumper. I broke up with her because the relationship was too toxic and we were only hurting each other. She gave me too many false hopes that she would change, and I saw no growth anymore. I decided that it was over when she started physically hitting me.

Fast forward to last month, I reached out and replied to her messages (broke NC lol) only to find out she's already seeing another guy, this is 3 months after the break up btw.

What happened was, she told me she already had a new suitor and that she still loves and wants me but would constantly bring up her "new" guy while I'm trying to discuss what had happened between us during we were NC.

She told me she had grew, she had changed for the better — but I don't really think any of those were true. She would force the narrative that the new guy is someone so much better than me and they do the things we used to do (yeah, she sent me a screeshot of their convo where she sexually teased the guy out of nowhere).

I was a dumb and soft guy at that time, I let her walk over my dignity and treat me like I'm a third party — whereas it was only about us.

In the end, she told me even if she loves me, she would choose the new guy because it'll be unfair if she would leave him (Context, they only knew each other for 3 weeks. My ex is 18 and the new guy is 25).

She scarred me by also keeping it to a point that the new guy had connections with her family and... well... money.

Now back to the present, a month after our last interaction. Her birthday was the other day, she sent me a video of her crying — wishing I was there with her to countdown for her birthday. And oh man, that was a whole "What the fuck?" moment for me.

Why? Why would you do that when you've made it clear that you left me for another man. Why would you long for me when you squashed the very few pride I had? Why would you say you want me when you showed me pictures of you and your new man going out blatantly?

At that point, I just knew she's just keeping me to boost her ego and need for attention.

The only reason I didn't block her initially because I told her I'll be there when she neess me — but nah, this is too much.

I am proud that I have now blocked her off of everything and have no plans on reconnecting.

She made her choices, and that's for her to bear. I'll learn. I'll move on.

We will all do.