Work, school, my hobbies, music, everything reminds me of her and our time together. I don't know what to do besides mope around all day because I feel insane. I can't stop having these thought loops of her with another person or what she's doing late at night, things we used to do. I can't stop fixating on her and feeling physical pain. I can't stop making deals to her that we can be friends just so I can see her face again for brief moments. She shined so much light on me and made my life so good, and now that shes gone I have to start from scratch at my parents house. It feels like no matter how hard I try, I can't lift myself out of this. My self confidence, my self love, a large part of my identity, all gone.