So I have been dating this guy for 2 months. We met on a hook up app but I said straight on the beginning that I am looking for a relationship. We hit it off but he turned out to be avoidant maybe even narcissistic. I felt ignored and not important. He was a very visual guy but he stopped giving me complements very soon. He wouldn't ask me questions nor seemed interested in me as a person. He would only call me pet names. So I didn't feel uplifted or wanted. I called him out once he came back apologising. Shortly after o had enough of this cold treatment and I pulled out (and went for a date with someone else). But after 2 weeks he came back telling me how much he wanted relationship. Then he went on holiday and I stayed waiting and hoping it will work out. I took me 2 dates to realise its not working for me, it makes me feel insecure and on edge. So I broke up. Still proposing friendship. But after a weekend I realised that I have been played with and I block him so he cannot run back and hook me up again. But I don't feel well. It feels like I am being a coward, I feel guilty in case it upset him. I tend to always speak up my truth so this is out of character for me. I know I cannot be in contact with him to be able to move on. Because I need something better than breadcrumbs. Still I wish I didn't feel so bad about it :(