I haven’t seen them in months but I still think of them in everything I do day to day. If I get a text I’ll think of when they sent me texts. When I eat i turn to share my food with them. When I’m walking I go to hold their hand. I’ve been sent home from work for the past few weeks for crying in front of customers. When I see couples or children I think of the life that we both promised each other when we were together. I didn’t have anyone else I’m not close with my mom or stepdad or my brother. I never have been close with them. I’m I have no one to talk to I feel so alone. We were together for 3 years and everyday without her is the biggest emotional challenge of my life. I’ve had bad thoughts about my own life. I’ve called a hotline but I didn’t feel any better. Lost doesn’t begin to describe my emotional state rn. Ive cried everyday for weeks. I just want a hug but I know one I’m won’t come.