My ex left me some time around mid of November 2022. We had been together since 1st Jan 2022, so it was around 11 months or so. But you know what they say, it's not the time, but the time you spent with that person.

These 11 months were the happiest times in my life. I laughed, and smiled. Loved and kissed. She was the bread to my butter. Different in our own ways but amazing together. She made me happy. I was happy.

We both had to do long distance since August, and we both were ready to make it work (as we both were moving to separate nations but the ldr was only for 1 year)

I guess, long distance took a toll on us. We fought and cried but i was sure I wouldn't leave her. I couldn't right? We were meant to be. In mid November she said I don't think so I love you anymore and ended it. Of course like every couple, we had our differences, fights, snorts and tears. Being away from her, I didn't know how to fix fights, I didn't know how to fix it. She kept on telling me you don't treat me right. But I still don't know what more am I suppose to do other than video calling her everyday and telling her how much I love her. I used to do it everyday.

We video called everyday, for hours. While I was cooking or doing dishes or while I was grocery shopping.

She left me in November, stranded on this planet in her absence. I wrote a poem to cope up the loss. I was a mess. However, I guess I was busy and moving on slowly. And I was happy I was making some progress.

Until April 2023 came. Everything suddenly came back to me. I keep on wondering what went wrong? Where did I lose the plot of our relationship. Did she find someone else?

I look at her pictures for hours. Everything reminds me of her. Her headband, her big smile, her laugh. Her goofy acts and her presence. I keep on wondering what it would be now to be with her and have her around me. I wonder how we reached where we are. I wonder if she misses me as much as I do. I wonder if she thinks of messaging me. To be honest, I hope she messages me and tells me, "I miss you".

What to do?