What am I supposed to say to you? You text me after 4 months asking me how am I and that you just wanted to check in.

Should I tell you that it didn't even feel like you were gone because I can't stop thinking about you. I keep torturing myself over everything when I wasnt even at fault.

I am so so angry and upset with you and the worst part is I can't bring myself to hate you. That I have been crying for the past 2 days since you texted me because all the emotions keep rushing back.

I feel so shitty that you can just ask me how am I nonchalantly. Like I was just a fucking acquaintance that you are checking up on after a few months.

I know it's not rational and I know your intentions were good but it's how I feel and it hurts so much. Since 2 days I've been waiting on my phone, thinking you'd say something more other than okay when I told you I am doing fine.