tldr;

I met her on Hinge back in October. I moved into my parents house after separating from a woman I almost married to only live here temporarily until this summer. I did NOT expect to find a woman, on a rebound that I actually loved.

We spent a lot of time together, talked every day for 4 months, we didnt have sex, but she sent me a lot of things about how badly she wanted me. I grew a bond with her, she told me secrets of her life and opened up to me, and I told her secrets and things of mine. I felt, for the first time in 7 or 8 years that I found someone new, that my ex almost fiance didnt matter, and like I met the love of my life.

Until we went on an 8th date last week, and she texted me 3 days later, on Valentines Day, after receiving the roses I sent her, telling me how "I'm such a great guy, but it's not there for her anymore."

How can people be so fickle after getting to know each other so deeply? It hurts like hell. I'll miss this one for a LONG time. I feel heartbroken, sad, upset, wake up upset, go to work upset. I surround myself with online dating to try and move on, but I thought she was genuinely beautiful. Out of many thousands of woman in a room, I'd pick her, hands down.

Doesn't matter now. She's gone. Life goes on. I really despise her for doing this to me. I feel so empty, sad, and inadequate. How the fuck did she just fall out of it? I guess that's what happens, glad I at least confronted her on our "situationship" where we stand, and find out where we stand, I sure did.

I should have known when I saw her Apple Watch blowing up with notifications from Hinge back in January when things were perfect. I made excuses back then why it didnt matter, but the writing was on the wall. I just liked her so much that I got love drunk and refused to see the writing on the wall.

I hope I find someone one day again who made me feel like she did, and it actually works out.