Ah here to rant. It’s been a full week now that we’ve been broken up. Last night I explained to my friends the real story (it was too embarrassing to say while I was still with him) and saying it out made me realize how FUCKED he was. He was a kind guy and he did a lot for me but he wasn’t always honest/respectful of me and our relationship.

I learned a lot but most importantly that red flags don’t need to be out and screaming at you for it to be an unhealthy relationship. That there can simply just be missing spaces and it doesn’t mean you should stay because it’s mostly good. I needed to have the strength and self respect to leave when it was time but I dragged it on because being with him was comfortable for me. Was afraid of the uncomfortable and afraid of being alone.

All this to say I was more lonely being with him than I am being alone. But I do really miss the companionship and the comfortability. I’m a relationship type of person (but i promised myself I’d stay single for at least a year). So wanted to start a discussion. Does anyone else miss the companionship but not really the person as much? How do you deal with those feelings? And furthermore, how do you guys know when you’re ready to start opening up again to a new person? When you stop thinking about all the little things you loved about said person?