It’s been 1 month and 8 days since she told me I need to find someone else who can be what I need…. I’ve spoken to a therapist and a psychic to just give me some sort of mental relaxation….

But when I wake up, when I drive, when I’m doing errands, I continue to have panic/anxiety attacks breathing heavily and shaking.

She’s moved on…but I can’t. Even looking at my options on FB Dating has zero luck. I’ve been out on one date and it was a flop…but even though it was kind, I still thought about her.

I know people might or might not get it, I know I was there as one, but even short lived we loved each other. We connected neither one of us had ever experienced before…even when we were married to our spouses at our time.

This hurts everyday…. Everyday gets more hard to want to get out of bed. I had so much planned for us and I felt like my grief about my divorce was finally over and I could love again, and I did, and my heart is so broken it’s dust.