My ex and I had a very weird break up. I broke up with him over text because I’m an ass hole and was having severe anxiety but couldn’t talk to him (we are 1 hour away with king of crazy schedules) face to face. I apologized profusely for that and how disrespectful it was. I told him I thought we should try to talk it through but he said he thought we were forcing something that would just end up being a problem in the future. It’s possible (probable) he was right. We texted for 2-3 weeks…mostly me in the end and then he said he needed space. 5 days is n/c and he reached out to me over Instagram about something. I called him and we talked briefly. I cried the whole time. He said he was done and “I thought that’s what I need space means”. I said I hadn’t been in a relationship outside of my marriage for 17 years, I didn’t know that. I said you have to be very clear with me. He’s VERY good at setting boundaries. He said at the end of the call “I really hope we can be friends” (earlier he said he thought we should try to be friends and see how it went (if the same issue would be an issue) and something might develop down the road. (We have such a good emotional connection but we both have anxiety and I’m still fun-shy and healing). 5 more days if n/c and I called to tell him I had finally seen his perspective on our big issue after a lot of research and thinking and just wanted to apologize for not seeing it. I got it now. Gotta go…Then I hung up. 5 days n/c after that I asked if he wanted to try to go hiking in July as friends and see show it goes. (both of our birthdays are in summer). He said “sure, we can plan something around that time” then blocked me on everything. (I did tell him weeks ago he should block me because I was so disregulated and stressed my adhd is off the heezy and I don’t think I can hold off long term contacting him)

My question: why would he say yes let’s try hiking and be friends then just block me without saying anything first? Do you think this is temporary or for good? We really love each other and he’s friends with his ex-wife who cheated on him…neither of us did anything wrong really I just thought we had a deal breaker long term and didn’t want to be more months down the road. I guess at some point you’re already in love enough that it hurts the same either way. (we already had my kids meet him and spent some time with him).