I found my Daddy and it was more than everything I wanted. It ended and I thought I was ok with it. My husband recently entered into a similar dynamic with someone and it's brought up some big feelings. I'm unloading on the internet because there isn't anyone I can share this with.
My Daddy and I connected really fast, developed trust, and I felt more comfortable with him than anyone else. I'm 80% brat and 87% submissive. We met on a dating app and moved over to texting quickly. I was comfortable with him because he said he was poly and experience and I figured that he could help my husband and I navigate opening our marriage. My husband was uncomfortable about how quickly we bonded and fell into the sexting/Daddy dynamic. Daddy and I were long distance as we lived about an hours' drive apart. We waited to meet until my husband was comfortable with it. Husband didn't understand what it was as he was unfamiliar with the dynamics of Daddy/LG and was resistant to me dating him. I get it, we were texting regularly and I was really excited about him. Daddy is also married with children but was very family with the kink and all that it entailed. We chatted daily for an intense 6 weeks. We finally met and the chemistry was there. I introduced him to my husband on the next meeting and things looked up as my husbands was getting more comfortable.
I got a text about 6 weeks ago (about a week after meeting husband) from Daddy saying that being open was tearing his marriage apart and they have decided to close it. He basically said goodbye and that was it. I was out. I think at that time I bottled up everything and was in shock.
About 10 days ago Daddy contacted me to see if I was doing ok. I assumed he deleted and blocked my number so I was surprised. He said his wife opened up about her feelings and that it was out of nowhere that they had to close their relationship or face divorce. I get it, I really do. His wife had never seen him be a Daddy and they don't have that dynamic.
I thought I had closure... until this week. My husband has started to chat with someone who he's meeting with on Friday. I'm really happy for him, but she wants the Daddy/LG and he's studying to provide that to her. He's been asking me for my advice on things and I've been doing my best to help him navigate it or what to search for. He's excited and again, I'm really happy for him. We tried that dynamic together before and since we've know each other for so long, it just didn't work. I'm not jealous of his attention to the new woman. And now it's really hit me how much the loss really impacted me. I thought I could just be over it since there really isn't anything I can do about it. Daddy is gone and it just really sucks.
Now I'm wondering if I'll ever find that again. It feels hopeless and the men that claim to be Daddy's either have no banter and/or are like, "I'll put a ball gag in you to shut you up". Not what I'm looking for. It just really hurts. Now that I've had it and it's gone, I feel like a large part of me is missing.