TLDR: Do you fear giving out punishment or relish in the fear of the punished?

Yesterday, one of my lovely aspiring switchy witch friends made a post asking for a deeper look into our dynamics for her own ponderings and learning journey and we got into the punishment side of things in the comments. I tagged my Owner for a thorough explanation who wrote this little snippet:

'For a punishment, though, she doesn't want it, and may or may not resist it, but ultimately accepts it because she knows she's deserving. And that's a specifically exquisite form of mind breaking that I savor each time I have the chance to do it.'

And he's so damn on point with my mindset on being punished that it's almost scary. The utter defeat, fear, and anguish that comes with him torturing me during punishments is something I crave. My reasons for wanting to be in that space vary, but the goal of having a quiet mind and a broken will by the hands of my Owner don't.

Now, this stems from the fact that he's a Sadistic monster I adore with all my heart, and I'm a masochistic sasshole who likes to wander into the monster's cave and poke him with a stick until he does something. He relishes being able to punish me, as quoted above, and I want to be nothing but a broken toy in a pool of tears and other substances. I thrive in the dark side of our romance and push into it willingly with enthusiastic consent for him to make me bloom in such ways.

Others seem to be less comfortable with the idea of exerting, or receiving, power in such a way. For the record, that's okay, I'm curious about this side of our wonderful community.

So my questions of the day to satisfy said curiosity are:

Do you feel uncomfortable giving out punishments? If so, why and how do you manage it?

What do you get out of a punishment as a Dom/sub of the spicy sass variety?

Is it with an edge of Sadomasochistic intent or something else?