Hi yall, I’m normally a silent member and just upvote and giggle from afar but this morning, I just need to vent! If this isn’t allowed I’m so sorry I’m advance.

I really found someone on here that I thought I connected with. He claimed to be able to handle the bratty attitudes, and my constant curiosity, right. So We met up, sparks were flying, it was great. But it all ended today and I was not expecting it to end so suddenly.

(Side note: i thought I had the daddy issues that didn’t manifest itself by liking older men, spoiler Turns out i do…😭😭 lol )

..but Im actually… hurt by This. I was not expecting this to hurt, At all, especially bc I was the one who said that I am not ready for a relationship, not one that he was looking for. I believe heavily in the friends (with benefits) to lover trope , like that’s the only way i can date anyone. If I’ve been around you, hung out with other people with you, and had an established dynamic that can then bloom to romance. But he was looking for like a relationship now now. And I don’t trust men who want to start dating as a way to get to know each other , I mean sure I’m having commitment issues rn, but you just wanna date ..without…knowing me??? Like I get having a dynamic outside of a relationship, like a d/s that aren’t “dating”, we initially met up for a dynamic like that, but he caught feelings and cut it all off. I’m really young (22), and recently out of a terrible abusive relationship, I don’t take to dating lightly or easily.

( side note: dating the wrong person can mean bargaining your life. Y’all please stay safe out here. )

(side note again: this is the first time I’ve let myself Kinda like someone new since my ex. And it was a good experience with this guy, it’s the first time I’ve been relaxed and felt semi safe with a guy since my ex )

Anyways having to hear someone that I opened up to, reject me In this way, broke my heart a little bit, especially bc he started pointing out all these flaws about me, and being so rude, and it was really sad. This was like a needle through the fibers of my Cocoon of Healing, reminding me, that heartbreak and sorrow are still lurking outside. But analogies aside: I smoked a blunt , played “Take me as I am” by Mary J. Blige, and burned some incense and fragrance oils. Zen🕊🕊

Good riddance, I’m okay. I’m great! He said I have low self esteemmmm, bro, I’m fine Asf (mind you that’s all he could keep saying when we met up, was how beautiful and sexy I was, but when I agreed with him he was like “okay don’t be narc.” Like 😒 ) im so lovely, and kind, and understanding, and I give the best cuddles, fuck you, you self righteous asshat, I’m FUCKING AWESOME, just bc I don’t want the things you do doesn’t mean I have low self esteem u shitfucker.

Anyways he could barely handle my bratty attitude, matter of fact he was more sassy than me, maybe he should join the sub too 😝

TLTR: got cut off from a potential dom, and he lowkey hurt my feelings. But gotta remember I’m always bad biddie.

Update: YALL HE MESSAGED ME YESTERDAY OFF A DEAD ACCT AND SAID HE MISSES ME AND REGRETS WHAT HE SAID. Heheh heheh tooo bad, I’ve deadass moved on. Never cry over spilled milk there’s a line of milkmen waiting for u.