Looking for someone we had the best time with for as long as we known each other had great time and made some amazing love ran into a wall and no really understanding it and I think a lot of it was over emotions and now things are so messed up and I can’t believe I even want to even find or reason but that how special this was and I’m so lost broken and trying to pick all the pieces I’m tossed and when we seen each other I wonder if you felt it too and you think I won’t be as understanding as I was when we met I been to our spot a couple of times thinking you was thinking about me the thing I have found out that being said I’ve done you know it isn’t true and I have done stupid shit too all have been forgiven I just wish I could explain and hear your side too here it is Xmas I want you to know if it means anything I will give you everything everything rebuild and do all you need just stop already I know it’s probably to late but if I didn’t try and let you know I’ll leave I’ll walk I never never see you again I didn’t do anything that bad there’s people that kill beat and do awful things I didn’t why do I get this everyone thinks I’m nuts for still trying to reason with you as I know you and know if our feeling and all we been through was real that is why and maybe not now but someday you will see that but I have given you an opportunity to have the home and all the things and stay married and you do what you want I’ll go I want you to have it birthday I will be there at our place and if your not there I’ll leave you a gift there