I'm always so full of anger or anxiety if it's not one or the other I'm completely foggy headed. Anyways, something I've been doing to help maintain my relationship is completely put on a mask and go nom verbal. If I'm upset and know I'm about to have a outburst I swallow that shit, I swallow it so hard and shove it all the way down and I pretend. I pretend it's not there, it kinda helps but I feel it's not exactly healthy for my mental health the way I mask it so harshly. Outbursts anger could leave a snarky hateful comment breathe shove it down, lie mask, move on until I'm alone and can outpour my emotions.

Edit: I lie alot to mask my true feelings and opinions to maintain what ever relationship I currently have. I feel guilty about finally letting it spill out but then again it's what was needed to be said, the honest truth.