I’m a 29 year old male, military veteran, and was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder at least two years ago; I’ll have to ask my psychiatrist when she diagnosed me.

Anyway, I’m coming to the realization that my BPD is the reason why I’m so lonely, depressed, and anxious because it causes me to lash out towards those I care about, often for trivial reasons.

I’m not too inclined to get into the details of it but I’m deciding that living life with no friends, no family, and only having social interactions at work would be the best thing to do for everyone, and myself to some extent. I don’t want to hurt, disappoint, or otherwise let anyone down. And it has the added benefit of keeping myself safe from harm. Can’t be hurt if I don’t give anyone the ammunition to do it.

Win-win, right?