I want to know if it is a BPD thing or not. When I first start dating someone I am extremely anxious, I’m insecure about everything I say. I always think I’m saying the wrong things. I’m really afraid of not being able to keep them interested and that they’ll eventually get bored of me. So I have a insane urge to self sabotage and just stop talking to them.

I’m generally anxiously attached lol. But in the beginning it’s especially bad and for a different reason. My normal fear when we’re already together is them getting tired of me and all my issues etc. But in the beginning it’s a fear of being able to keep them interested and not bored of me.

If anyone else experiences this, can you tell me how to get over it? Because I’m getting so sick of it, I have self sabotaged before because of it.