I just had a meltdown today. I don't remember what caused it but I have a lot of stress going on in my life. I started hitting my head against the wall then started punching myself and making threats to hurt my mom if she was trying to stop me because I cant take being alive anymore and I want to end my life. She threatened to called the cops on me and locked herself in her room because she was scared of me which made me feel worse so I took all my anti anxiety medication. Like 15 of 20mg Buspar. I feel numb if anything. My mom was going to check me in to a hospital but I'll lose my job and I live in the United states so we dont have free healthcare atleast in Texas. I'm going too see my doctor, my PCP Wednesday I'm hoping she can put me back on my medication can give me a diagnosis besides MDD and GAD since it's way more than that. I feel like I am going to pass out so I'm going to take a nap. I just feel horrible rn. But can a PCP diagnosis you?