I'm 22 and married to the love of my life. He is absolutely wonderful and such a sweetheart. We met 8 years ago when I was 60 pounds lighter and I didn't have vaginal health issues. Fast forward to today and I suffer from recurrent infections and extreme body issues.

For a little context I am 180 and about 5'9. I am pretty curvy, which is the only thing I can stand about myself. However, I constantly feel too gross to let my husband touch me. We don't have sex but twice a month maybe three times because I am so scared I will smell gross or look weird or anything related.

I am constantly scared he will leave me or cheat on me for a skinny girl thats healthier and prettier. It's getting to the point where I think he has become rather frustrated with my constant questions about whether or not he wants to find someone else.

I genuinely don't know where to go from here. On our honeymoon a few months back I felt absolutely stunning and sexy but it never ended with us making love because I kept telling him I was too gross to touch.

Help!!