Hey guys, I'm new here, but I've suspected for a long time that I have had BDD and I was wondering if any of you have also realized that you have spent, or spend a lot of money to 'fix' your appearance to seemingly no avail? I myself am a regular at Ulta, and I've purchased a shameful amount of products to 'fix' whatever aspect of myself I am fixating on at that period. I've been in their diamond rewards status because of it, and only have about $250 left of my credit line as quarantine left me with nothing but time with myself and my laptop (read: a reflective screen). I am aware of my troubling spending, but I don't know how to stop. Sometimes I feel so bad about how I look, or the fact that I even have a physical form that people can look at that I have impulses to self-harm. It doesn't help that I also work in the food service industry, so I am PAINFULLY aware that other people are going to be looking at me for literal hours a day, and I hate being aware of every aspect of my face and body at pretty much any given time.