Body Dysmorphia

Just found about this subreddit, a while ago. And wow. All the feelings I've been experiencing is all in there. A lot of people has been going through the same things I've been thinking about everyday.

I'm 23 and I'm a male. It's so hard to tell what I've been feeling to others, because I know they'll think this is not a big deal. But God, I've been suffering for years. It's affected my whole life.

Last night, a party that I went to, there was this attractive man. He was so good-looking. And gosh, I can't stop comparing myself to him. I've been looking at his pictures all day, and he has it all. I've been on my bed all day long, freaking weeping about it. And I'm so pathetic.

I've set this impossible standards that I should attain, and I don't know how to stop this. It's a never-ending cycle of self-pity, self-destruction, and self-loathe. I freaking hate myself. But I don't wanna have another body. It's just so hard.