For context: 26m, 5’9 and 165 pounds. I’m also seeing a therapist weekly and we’re about 10 days into discussing the negative self talk and body image that I have. So I know that on the surface, there’s really nothing wrong with me at all. I ran in college and still run 6-7 days a week now. I just can’t shake these lingering feelings that I’m gross, disgusting, undesirable, and letting myself go. A lot of this started when I tried on a couple old pairs of pants. They’re 29 and 30 in the waist, and I’ve found that 32 looks and feels comfortable to me. Wearing the 29 and 30 waist pants made me feel so utterly disgusted with myself when I looked in the mirror. The pants felt tight, and it looks like I was bursting out of them. I spent an hour obsessively googling the proper fit for pants, and despite learning that I’m probably properly sized at a 32 waist, I still hate myself anytime I put on pants without a stretchable waistband. It makes no sense and I don’t WANT to have those thoughts, but I can’t shake them and it makes me feel so awful and disgusting. I’m trying to journal my thoughts and talk to my therapist about it, but I can’t shake the negativity. Do you all have any advice on what I can do to make the negative thoughts go away? I hate feeling this way about myself but I feel like I can’t stop the thoughts from popping up