Worst because... i need more. i need to know how the story ends. i need to know the full picture . i suffer from depression and anxiety in my day to day life, and discovering bojack horseman was... well its saved me a number of times. it reminds me while i may have bad parts i've never done as much as him. and its made me stronger and never run away from my problems. it also showed me that slipping up is a part of life. but i need to see growth is. the episode from last we see what could of been a sign of someone redemption, however they failed and yeah. i feel weak and vulnerable after each season because im left with a feeling of "man, i just.... can i do this? if he cant with all he has, why should i be able to".

it just is a bit hard. in some ways i'm better because i'm actively seeking help, but in others... man its hard