I've lived in the hood for my whole life basically and it's so traumatizing, like I just ordered "we real cool" by bell hooks(still shipping), I read the description and it was so true, like the hood traumatized black men and women alot but like the patriarchy just like pushes the trauma over the edge, like it makes black men these emotionless assholes that make things worse by destroying any sense of community cause of patriarchal entitlement and I'm not any different

I used to be the same but it's like damn most of the struggles I faced were basically eldritch horrors beyond my imagination, and it's crazy cause people want me to be "masculine" too(I'm 6'3 and darkskin) and it's like why, I'm causing less harm just trying to be myself it's confusing; people AREN'T relieved I'm not super insecure about being masculine????