Wassup you guys! Hope you all are well. Last week I’ve come to the conclusion that I may actually be trans. What I simply did was think about myself in the future as an elderly person. Come to find out it was blank, because I was trying to force myself to see myself as an older woman. Then it made sense to me. I kind of somewhat knew and have been pushing it down for some time. I did start at around 18/19, but I decided to stop. At the time I chose to give myself more time to understand. During this I feel like I’ve somewhat suppressed myself and somewhat disassociated. For one, it’s somewhat disconnecting from the lesbian community and that life that I’ve known and understood since 12/13 years old. Even though sometimes In my head I’m like “Damn, I think I’m a dude.” Lmaoo. I know it’ll be hard for me though. And two I’m weary about my sexuality changing as well. As someone who deals with sexual orientation ocd, it does not help my case. Right now I would describe myself as someone who is mostly into women. I know there will be other things that come up, but those battles I must face. I even have my name that I actual feel attuned with. Naming my own self on my own terms gave me a sense of autonomy. Anyways, I still have time to learn and decide. But I think i already know lol. Thank you