Pushing 40 in a short flash of time. I guess I was maybe 9 when I had my first bisexual adventure. I pretended to be unable to have interest, mainly because both his and my family’s would of misguided us with fear anyway: I would secretly have guys I’d meet for sex on the DL most of my life at this point. Labeling me wasn’t something i really cared about. As far as knowing who i am i was 19 when I knew 💯 I was bisexual but knew id never cared if I belonged to a group or not. First wife suspected at times but only proof was catching man4man porn on my phone. But she blasted me all over social media, creating my confidence very low and also I was having very specific reoccurring dreams almost nightly about wearing lingerie and quickly became how i slept every night. I noticed I’d feel jealous watched a woman having vaginal sex when i watched pornos ? (Don’t judge me like you never have either) was very happy as a growing male teen but loved how dressing girlie made me feel. I’ve always kept guys on a no dating ever understanding. And it worked perfectly. I never hid it from my ladies I’d date but they caught on to the mannerisms in romantic moments. Recently I began hanging out more with a guy, he’s openly gay. We’ve been together multiple times but his energy’s way different. I’ve become clingy on him even kissed and cuddled with him and really enjoyed it. Now I find myself missing him and I don’t even want any kind of a relationship anymore. And lve never once done more than hook up’s and go with the boys I’ve been with until him. I’m very conflicted with these facts I’ve discovered. He’s a great friend of mine. And very caring but now he wants me to meet his family as his boyfriend. Like I don’t care what people think at all and I don’t wana hurt him if I’m on guard and reserved over the topic. But I what’s the big deal anyway. I think being known as his best friend is all anyone needs to know. Anyone relate to this