Context: I (17F) recently got out of a long distance relationship — and although it was hard as hell at first, I feel so much happier and way more free.

Now, the problem is... I REALLY wish I had a boyfriend or girlfriend (irl) that I could be all cute and couple-y with and all that stuff. Yknow, borrow each other's clothes, have movie nights / anime marathons, get matching outfits or accestories — just so many things I'd love to do to shower them with love and affection!

The problem is... I've never dated someone irl (yes yes laugh/cringe all you want, I do that all the time lol), and never had an "actual" relationship with a girl. I want to experiment with my sexuality and just attraction in general, but I really want a long-term relationship. :(

Also — I sometimes I wish I had a boyfriend, but at other times I wish I had a girlfriend. It's so confusing! All I know is that I just want someone to love and hang out with and hold hands and- AGH T^T I just wanna love someone, preferably someone who won't judge me for being bi — but I don't know where to look for people (lots of homophobes here). I don't really have friends, I don't go to clubs or concerts or anywhere really. I am too shy/anxious to just go up to a stranger and try talking to them.

Do you guys have any ideas?