Am I… gay?

I don’t know if this is the right subreddit to post this to but here we go…

19 M asian. My few sexual experiences were all with men. I like to be extremely submissive when it comes to bottoming. I never topped. I like to be the small spoon.

Ever since, I consider myself a bisexual (closeted). I appreciate women and their beauty. I also had a gf in high school. However, I can’t decipher if I’m sexually attracted to them. Never even had I kissed a woman (though there were a couple of opportunities).

To put it into perspective, when I see a hot shirtless guy, I instantly feel giddy (lol). But when I see a hot gal, I have to make conscious effort for me to get turned on. I still wonder how it feels being intimate with them.

Most likely that not, people would tell me to go try it with a girl and see for myself. The thing is, I’m anxious of the what ifs. Should I do some explorations now? I’m conflicted.