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Journal #16, October 24 (NSFW)
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(I'm marking this not safe for work only because I want to be free in expressing what is in my mind, heart and soul, and not necessarily because it is dirty or obscene.)Dear Daddy:I don't know who you are yet. Maybe I already know you but not as a potential Daddy right now. But I know what I desire of you. And I can't wait to know you!It's been so many years since I first realized I have the capacity to like guys and struggled with accepting it. There was so much doubt, guilt, shame, and self hatred, all for no good, healthy reason. Society told me to some extent I was wrong, sick, perverted, sinful. But with a lot of self reflection, self work and generous help from many, many anonymous Internauts out there, I began to accept my preferences as healthy, happy, natural and beautiful. So here I am, a bisexual. I'm so glad, because why should I limit my options for fun and pleasure? What's more, I'm a bisexual man. Let the rumors fly that I'm confused or promiscuous, or I'm really gay and in denial. All I know about this is I'm so eager to start having meaningful sex with guys!Please know I'm open to challenges but I don't appreciate pushiness. Since you are older, you are most likely wiser and will know how to approach that fine line. I know in my mind what I want but there are potentially so many unknowns for me when involving another person in trying to achieve that. I ask you to be wise, intuitive, considerate, kind and gentle. Take me by the hand and lead me slowly but decisively where I am destined to go. Make me comfortable with my homosexual desires. Make me feel they are a valued part of who I am.After we meet each other socially a few times, vet each other, and evaluate our vibe, eventually I know I will want to take things to the next level. I hope you will want that too! But know I am not looking for a mere fuck. I want so much more with you. When we're finally alone and it's just you and me without any other person in the world knowing what we're up to, perhaps I should get naked first. I would consider it an acknowledgement of my respect for and admiration and appreciation of what you have to offer me to make me a better, wiser, happier person. It would also be symbolic of my submission to you, your greater knowledge, presenting to you the most vulnerable, fragile part of myself. Please realize this represents my trust and respect in you.Kiss me. Please kiss me! As you might guess, I don't want a five minute blow and go. I want to be so close with you. I want to expose a side of me that no one else has ever really seen. And kissing is that extra spice that can help two people know and experience each other on a beautifully close level.Make me feel right about being with you. We all know one of the purposes of sex is procreation, which we know for a fact will not be happening! But it's naive (and often unnecessarily repressive) to consider that the only purpose. It also does something useful. It resolves conflict and tension. It opens up people to each other. I want to open myself up to you, and not just physically.As much as I want to feel pleasure and oneness of you, I acknowledge my feelings might be complex and I might break down in tears before, during, or after our lovemaking. Please be aware of this and address my tears if they come. Let me know it's OK to cry, it's part of the process. Give me the space to mourn losing something that felt so normalized but was not necessary and actually toxic.Help me realize the pleasures with someone else of the same sex are not in any way bad, but to be embraced and celebrated. Help me to cast off my trepidation, misconceptions, hangups thoroughly and decisively. Help me to be less self conscious and more conscious of our pleasure together and the bond we are establishing with each other, a bond I will always remember vividly and look back upon fondly, no matter where life takes me, for as long as I live.So, whoever you are to be, I crave you. I want to open myself - not just bodily but with mind, heart and spirit - to you and a mutually passionate experience. It will be one of the happiest days of my life. I hope it will be one of yours too, and after I have lived longer and become wiser, I hope to open the legs, and the entire being, of a younger man who is ready for a nurturing friend to walk with him on part of his journey.

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