I came out to a close friend. He was very supportive and shared that he had some bi experiences when he was younger.

This made me feel closer to him.

He has been having some trouble lately and we have been supporting each other for a while as friends. I told him I really care about you.

I have developed feelings for him. And maybe he picked up on it.

I got a text that said he was pulling away. And would return when he figures things out. I returned a text several hours later, explaining that if “we” have a problem we should talk about it and don’t shut me out. So talk to me.

5 days ago. Silence since.

I hope I haven’t lost a good friend.

And I am so angry and sad and hurt and afraid.

Accepting being Bi brought an incredible amount of internal peace to me. I am only just beginning to feel “society” pushing back. And I don’t want to be in this group. But I am.

So now I guess I have to learn to live in this new space and accept that not all of my old life will come along for the ride.