So a little back story. I am a married 46 year old Dad of 4. Been married to my wife 19 years. When I was in my early 20’s I “experimented”with a couple male friends. I use quotations because I guess it was not really experimenting, because we had a lot of sex, and I loved it. After those 2 guys moved away I kind of pushed that side of me into the closet. Due to societal pressure, friends whatever I have never experienced that again. I am a very masc man, covered in tattoos and a bit of a dad bod lol, I don’t really give off the bi vibe. About 2 years ago I came out to my wife. She was very accepting of the news. She isnt open to me sleeping with another man same as she isnt open to me sleeping with another woman, but she accepts that I am attracted to men and is fine with it. On a vacation while walking through the airport she even played a game of “is he hot” with me. It was a huge turn on lol. She isn’t open to MFM either though. Well now fast forward to the last year. My wife has lost all sexual drive. We haven’t had sex in 11 months. So no sex from my wife and no sex with another guy. I jack off and play with my dildo a lot lol I’m not even sure why I’m posting this. I know I definately need to find a therapist. And I’m not looking for random peoples approval to cheat. I don’t know. I’m not sure what to do at this point. It doesn’t help that I have low Testosterone and get shots, which makes me horny as a teenager. Helllllllp! Lol