Hi. Long story short,

I have been bisexual for a good couple of years now , mostly relying onto women emotionally and with men it’s physically (pretty sure a lot of people are like this)

But as the years go on, I notice that I never have had a good sex experience with a man because I’m lacking One specific thing, and that’s the love connection. I catch myself fucking around with men and being upset at myself when things don’t go as I thought because while I wanna go out on dates and get to know someone, they just wanna fuck me and get it over with. I have met some guys in the past that was willing to be in a relationship with me but I wasn’t in my right mindset but I know it’s somewhere out there still.

The bad side is that I have a girlfriend right now , we have been dating for the past year but everyday I fight the urge to chat with men . We have been rocky in the relationship and I feel like leaving all the time but we manage to make up and bond and I wouldn’t wanna lose that connection but I really want to experience a love connection with a man. I find men way more sexually appealing and I feel so free being with a man than a woman. I want to know how it’s like to have a connection with one instead of just a sexual one

Overall, I’m just venting on here really