I (M29) think I may be bisexual but haven't put this to test in real life. For context I've watched bi and gay porn for quite a while. I've also sexted and masturbated over video call with men on numerous occasions and find this incredibly hot. The problem is I don't think I'm attracted to men, I think I'm just attracted to dicks.

I get extremely turned on seeing cocks and fantasise a lot about seeing, touching and sucking them. But the idea of interacting with a guy is a turn off for me. I love seeing a guy stroking but if I can also see his face or hear him talking then that kills it a bit for me. I feel bad for thinking this way, but I think I just want the dick without having to deal with the person it's attached to.

My problem is I'd really like to test my sexuality but I'd like to do this in a way that doesn't involve interacting with a guy too much. My ideal scenario would be being able to watch a guy masturbate in person without us acknowledging each other. If I enjoyed this then perhaps I'd feel more comfortable moving to the next stage? But I have no idea how I'd find or arrange this kind of situation, or if anyone would be interested in just being watched in that way.

I'd really appreciate any advice from anyone who can relate to my situation, or has any ideas about how I might take this next step.